Drifting in and out
I’ve recently reconnected with an old friend and I’m so very happy about it. It has been such a delight. He’s doing well and seems happy, which makes me happy.
Plus, he’s been sending me new music that I have not heard before, which I’m adding to my new seasonal Spotify playlist that I’ve cleverly called “winter wound”. The music is great, because his taste in music is sublime, and he makes me laugh and he’s clever beyond words and he just makes the world a better more interesting place to be in. When he’s around.
Anyway, I was the one who reached out to him. It felt like the right time and I’m grateful he was receptive. He’s one of my most favorite people in the entire universe and my life is instantly improved with him in it.
So yay for old friends and new discoveries.
Tomorrow I’m finally exchanging gifts with you know who. My friends have taken to calling him Voldemort. we’ll see if something comes up, if he suddenly gets sick or has another commitment, or the pope is coming to visit him, or he has to fix his broken dishwasher, or something equally true and valid.
My presents to him are pretty good. there is a nice mix of thoughtful, homemade, humorous, useful and edible, with a bit of Christa dust sprinkled in. I thought about pushing the boundaries with this gift but then I decided that I’ve humiliated myself enough to last us both several lifetimes and maybe I can just cool the fuck down and be normal.
Well I can never be normal but I can play it cool. So! My new goal is to find patience and settle in for the long game. I think I can do it.
Also go see American fiction immediately.
Also I’m super into this new band, brigitte calls me baby.
also no one in the universe seems to know where the flying fuck my crashed up juke is and I have decided to hire a lawyer because things are getting very messy and complicated and no one is on my side and none of this was my fault and I just need someone to look out for me for once. I’m not playing around anymore.
This is the face of someone NOT PLAYING AROUND ANYMORE.