I don’t even care.
I have felt a little off ever since the accident. The physical soreness is easing up and my bruises are fading. See?
inside I still feel banged up. My anxiety has increased but I think the meds I started a few months ago have helped to keep it at manageable level.
I definitely feel emotionally withdrawn tho. Kind of vulnerable? A little raw. I’m not sure how to describe it. I just want to be left alone. I don’t want to be around people or go anywhere or do anything. It’s hard to tell someone that and probably hard to understand. I feel like this parking lot shadow.
I’ve actually been kind of an asshole. Very unresponsive. Ignoring people entirely. Especially the men. And I don’t even feel bad about it. I don’t even care.
I just need some room to breathe. Let me breathe okay.