bleah.

I’m not feeling all that attractive lately. I didn’t care when I was pregnant, but now that the baby is here, I am becoming increasingly aware of it. It’s depressing and I don’t like it. I can’t remember the last time a guy flirted with me. What makes it even worse is that I feel bad for feeling bad about not getting a lot of opposite sex attention. Like, how lame am I for caring whether or not people flirt with me. But I can’t help it. I don’t think it’s wrong to want other people to notice you, but I don’t think it’s something I should be concerned with, even though it is, which makes me feel like an insecure loser. It’s all a vicious cycle that I don’t know how to break.

I need to start getting back to the gym is what I need to do.